Seeing Myself from a New Perspective
I discovered Happy Science in 1987 and have been a member ever since. For every retreat that I joined, I left feeling full of light. For this time, I was able to understand the Eightfold Path and about self-reflection. My name is Lyn, I come from New Zealand and these are the discoveries I made at this autumn 2010 retreat…
Seeing My True Mind
In meditation, you are meant to step out of yourself and look upon yourself from above. However, when seeing themselves, many people may think, “No, that’s not me. It couldn’t be me.” I was quite like this myself.
During the retreat, I could easily perceive my family situation. I know that most part of me is good – I try and do good Happy Science work in my community and act like a member of something so wonderful. However, my husband
and my three kids know me warts and all. I could see the amount of ugliness that I was holding in my mind. If I were to go to the other world, it would be a weight pulling me down. Sometimes I am screaming and yelling at my kids wanting them to obey me and I think to myself, “Angels of light can’t be around this vibration,” but I just can’t stop it.
A Beautiful Whetstone…
One of the participants whom I was blessed to sit beside during the seminar, really helped me realize all this. I could hear him breathing and yawning, while I thought, “I’ve come all the way to be in front of Lord El Cantare, and now I can’t concentrate!” I could feel my body turning away from him. However, when I watched his testimony, it touched me more than all the other amazing testimonies we watched during this seminar. It was beautiful and I felt a lot of love for him.
I truly thank him immensely because he was a beautiful whetstone who helped me make a very important discovery. He helped me see that I am always immersed in myself and not placing myself in my son’s position. My son is so full of life that he can be a pain sometimes, but instead of slam-dunking him for being so irritating, I should see him from a perspective other than my own.
Becoming a Shining Light
This retreat has allowed me to see my ego so much more clearly. Before that, I’ve never been able to see my weak and negative points so obviously. What I want to do now is to level up to that next stage, as self-reflection provides you with the enlightenment needed to save people, and to grow to be a bright, golden power of light. That is what I have to do, want to do and think I know how to do now.